And end to the story, and a new beginning.
Submitted by FunkyStickman on Tue, 07/28/2009 - 10:45pm
Sometimes, it is hard coming to the realization that you can’t do what you want. You spend your days dreaming of being in Bullrun, but no matter how hard you try, things just don’t come together. I know I’m not alone in this. I have no doubt in my mind that I could win if luck was in my favor, but it just hurts to know that as badly as I want to do it, I simply cannot.
So here I am, sitting dejectedly at my desk. I have tried everything possible to get the time off required for the show (short of quitting, which I will not do for the sake of my wife and kids). I came to a hard realization. My wife is not a fan of Bullrun. She has said she would let me, but I will not saddle her with the stress of watching our 4 kids alone, knowing I quit my job “just to be on TV.” There are very few people who would be willing to be on Bullrun. And there are even fewer people who have the driving skill and endurance it requires. Superfans know why we’re here. We respect the race, the cars, and the people that make Bullrun so exciting.
I guess what upsets me the most is that there’s a very good possibility that some team will get picked for the show, and they will have no respect for the race, no respect for other drivers, and quite possibly will embarrass themselves, and all car fanatics, in the process. I just don’t know if I can handle watching someone piss away the chance of a lifetime, when I am willing and capable of doing what it takes. I suppose it could be called jealousy, and I can’t deny that. It is a very humbling thing to admit.
However, even though I cannot apply for the show, it will not quench my spirit for rally races. There are several rallies that are only a weekend… Dustball 1500, and NER for starters. Instead of moping about what I cannot do, I will focus my energy on things that I can do. I will continue to modify the car for rallies. I’ll keep following the people who make it possible. Who knows, I may even start my own rally… the opportunity is here. I can envision a rally across Louisiana that ends in the French Quarter. I honestly think it would go over well.
Still, to sum it up, (for those of you who don’t like to read) I am rooting for Bullrun. When I get my chance, you can believe I will be there. Until then, I will wait, and prepare. And if the show picks another "Team Douchebag" you better believe they'll be hearing about it!
-Jeff
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Aww man - woulda been
Aww man - woulda been seriously cool to see you on the show - yer an awesome part of this site! But I can understand as well - I do a daily flip between "I can do it", and "We are not sitting well enough, financially". I am sorry to hear you aren't trying for S3, but hopefully a future season might be within grasp? You are so much a part of the rally world, now, and as you have pointed out, there needs to be more people with experience and tact to represent the car world! Plus, yer a wicked cool part of the forums, I think you'd have a rockin personality for Bullrun!
Thank you!
Thanks... I am humbled. There is always next season, and the way it's looking so far, I'm pretty sure there will be a Season 4. Regardless, even if I never get on the show, I'll support it any way I can. Thanks again, and represent those supercharged FWD vehicles, girl!
Thanks.
Thanks, Aaron, It took me 6 months to accept that I can't do it this year. Wasn't an easy pill to swallow. And I still have the bitter aftertaste in my mouth.
However, I will be rooting for every Superfan that makes it on! With so many good fan teams here, I don't see why they would pick anybody else, but you never know. This is TV, anything could happen.
To all you Superfans out there: KICK SOME ASS FOR ME!
Good read. I can't say I am
Good read. I can't say I am happy about you having to back out. But I do understand.